It all started about a month ago, then I let it go and it (almost) re-happened yesterday.
Let’s be blunt here: unorganized panic attacks.
I feel like it isn’t just me and that we have all been there at some point or another? Or I could just be telling myself that (back me up here). Who knows, but either way it’s the worst feeling in the world, right? Unorganized, not organized, a mess, a shit show, all over the place, needs a calendar, whatever you want to call it or yourself, it’s not fun. AT ALL.
It happened a few months ago. I woke up with a headache, felt a bit off, started to get nauseous, went to work (because that’s what we are here for!!!), had too many deadlines, took on some more, acted like I had it all together, broke down, stayed in bed for two days, cried, cried, cried some more, googled symptoms, thought I was going to die (spoiler alert: I didn’t die), figured it was the flu, went to the doctor, found out I had a panic attack due to stress and almost ran away forever.
Part of me was glad that it happened because I got a calendar which really got my shit together. I recommend calendars, planners and notebooks to every single breathing person on this planet. I don’t care if you don’t think you need it – you do. Think you have it all together? Always managing appointments? Never miss a thing? On time for everything? Doesn’t matter. Nope. Get a calendar.
Then, I let it go a little bit and it happened again. I’ve been all over the place the last few months, traveling and always running off to something, forgetting about my life saving calendar.
I’ll get organized next weekend!
REPEAT. REPEAT. REPEAT.
So, naturally, yesterday I started to feel off. A bit overwhelmed. Shit show status. BUT – luckily, I got to save myself before the horrid attack came on and I thought I was gone for good again! I caught that damn thing just in time.
What you’ll need: a phone that downloads apps (shocker), a calendar (or two), some colored pencils (or markers, crayons, paint, whatever floats your boat) and some time set aside.
I set out two hours (for today) to completely organize my life again. And by that I mean writing a lot down (like a lottttt), cleaning out my purse, going through my money, setting goals, planning the month, buying a new huge-ass calendar for my desk, and cleaning my car. I have to set the time aside so I actually do it. And cleaning my car is only on that list because it is something that gives me major anxiety when it isn’t done – I’ll feel like a new human after that. Do whatever you NEED to do for yourself, don’t just do what you think should get done, you know?
One of the best things you can get is the google calendar app for your phone. It is LIFE.CHANGING. I need something that is going to basically yell at me to be organized and ready, which this app is great at. It clearly doesn’t yell at you, but you can get alerts and the color code makes life so much easier (I’m all about color coding!).
The next best thing would be a calendar you can physically write on and look at daily. I carry one in my purse with me at all times and I have one in my apartment on our desk. I have this thing for actually writing stuff down on paper. I feel like I can get a better visual and crossing things off your list or day is a game changer. You feel so refreshed after, so organized, a new person! You know? Get some colored pencils and act like a child coloring in a book. For real. It will make planning way easier (and more fun) for you, plus you’ll be able to see things better with different colors for each task or goal.
I suggest that you put goals on your calendars because if you are working towards something, you need to know what to do next. You need to organize your steps and routine to take your goal to the next level. Just working at it with no plan may work for some reallllly really really lucky people out there, but I can almost guarantee you that you’ll be able to vision it better with a plan. And we aren’t all just that lucky. Write it down. See what is next. Figure it out.
Now, it’s key to know that I’m writing about this because even though I thought I had my life together and I thought that everything was just dandy and fine, it wasn’t at all. I was beyond stressed out and all over the place that I actually took my body and threw into a panic mode where I couldn’t function to do any kind of work. I was taking on too much and I couldn’t get the timing right, then felt down on myself when I didn’t get everything done. It was like a rollercoaster that you think you are enjoying until you drop a million feet down some rickety slope and you’re just like nope I’m all set with this and I might die. (I’m not one for rollercoasters, really).
Take some time to really figure out your life, for real. Like actually sit down and write out your goals, where you are trying to get to, what you want to get done this week, where next month should take you, what bills need to be paid first and when, etc. Get your life organized by just taking the time to do so. You are going to feel so.much.better when you are done, trust me.
Get a calendar, make some lists, and get your shit organized.
Much love, my planners.